Not Me (2021)

My Aesthetic Dream

Rated ~ 47.5/50 - Actual 9.5

My new No.1 BL.

Grunge fashion, art, vigilantes, motorbikes, tattoos, truth to power, twins, parkour ~ this was my aesthetic dream and even if I didn't enjoy the plot, this a visually euphoric for me.

Thankfully, I enjoyed the hell out of the plot. I was addicted from the first episode, I couldn't stop. And I love when that happens.

White and Black are identical twins who can feel the other's pain. When their parent's divorce, they are separated and White is moved to Russia, with his diplomat father where he loses his connection to Black.
As a young adult, he moves back to Thailand to start a political career. One evening during a dinner with his father and his friends, he experiences what Black is feeling for the first time since childhood, and we see that Black is running for his life and being beaten up by a group of men in suits. When White is in the hospital after collapsing, he gets a call from his childhood friend to tell him that Black is in a coma and near death.
To find the truth for this brother, he disguises himself as Black and takes his identity in order to join the motorcycle vigilante gang that Black was a part of, to discover who it was that attacked him whilst developing feelings for one member of the group, Sean.

Thus begins the identity swap to unravel the secrets of Black's gang and his attackers. A plot that will get me every time. I can't help it.


Some criticisms though ~
First - The twins have really crappy parents. Who separates siblings to begin with. I mean, parents separate but for them to decide, hey, I'll take this kid, and you take that one, and we'll never see each other again, boggles my mind. Then when White walks out on his father, we never see him again. At least Black fell out with his mother. White's dad was just like, sigh. And that's it LOL OK?

2 ~ After the attack on the garage, did White and Sean just live in a tent? lol We never see them in a building or what they're doing with their lives afterwards. How are they surviving? We are told via news outlet that boys are out on probation, which will give them a record. We see one boy continues his art project so, he was able to go back to Uni. But I feel like the relationships took a little more precedence over how the boys are living. I mean, just a scene of them being back in their room at the garage, or living in Black's old place would have been fine for me. Just a small missing detail that had me questioning.

3 ~ Black was absolutely my favourite character and I would have loved to have gotten more info on him. I understand that he goes off to do his own thing but I would like to have known what that thing was. Like White, he deserved to be happy esp since he had the harder road to walk. I assume he didn't go back to Uni or White would have known where he was. He kind of becomes a symbol at the end of White's alter ego rather than being a separate character that just hides in the background. I feel like he deserved more understanding than he got.
Todd also gave off a slight homo erotic vibe towards Black as well but we never see Black's perspective. He clearly loved Eugene so obviously Todd wasnt going to be at the forefront but I would have liked to have seen a little more inside his head.

4 ~ The relationship between Eugene and Gram was kind of awkward and I actually found it a little sad for Black. Cant lie. His childhood friend uses him and then tries to kill him. And his other bestie is lusting over his girlfriend, whom he breaks up with to protect, and he moves in like a vulture. eww.


The music in this was awesome. I dont think I've ever given a show's bgm a 10. It fit with the story and my own tastes, without being intrusive or wrongly placed, which I find can happen in Thai bls.

Overall, I'm a little addicted to this one, and I know it will be on repeat. No questions.

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A drama you must not miss!!!!!!!!

I recently finished watching this show and believe me when i say this show i literally wholesome. It has everything you need in a drama whether the story, music, acting ir chemistry.
This show was a rollercoster ride for me especially in the initial episodes where there was constant anxiety of gun being caught by them. I even left this show after 2 ep because of the constant fear of gun being caught . Still finishing this show was the best decision ever. This show not only shows intense chemistry but also touches many social issues which are present not only in Thailand but also many other countries.
The actors of this series were really good to... They expressed every emotion to the point, their anger, hatred, innocence, fear and many more.
The music choice in this series was awesome just awesome especially in the fireworks scene of yok and last kiss scene.
What i really liked was that they didn't only showed fight and violence but also art as a way of protesting.
The ending was pretty satisfying for me. It was real . As the issues mentioned were quite huge. It was to abolish or change the system and if in the ending everything would have settled it may seem unreal. But they showed that the fight is still on and change is being made although slowly.
In the end i would like to say you must really watch this show and it has high rewatch value.
Forgive me if i said anything wrong as its my first review and also that english is not my first language.

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Be Gay, Do Crime, Change The World

Yeah so I think this show permanently broke something in my brain and I have absolutely no regrets. Its reputation as a masterpiece is well-deserved; from the cinematography, to the music, to the acting... it's all absolutely fantastic.
Gun is obviously brilliant as both Black and White, but I would like to give a special shout-out to literally everyone else on the cast - they all deliver absolutely devastating performances that genuinely left me breathless on occasion.
The story is a perfect blend of action thriller, political commentary, and queer romance which feels suspenseful, believable, and thoughtful all the way through without ever becoming repetitive or preachy.
It addresses power struggles, systematic exploitation, oppression, and the politics and logistics of revolution unflinchingly and highlights the practical and moral complexities of these issues.
Even non-violent retaliation against an oppressor can have far-reaching and often harmful consequences for the people being oppressed.
Solidarity and community are one of the most powerful tools for enacting change.
Art and satire as acts of rebellion can be both entirely inconsequential and immeasurably impactful.
Revolution often cannot happen peacefully, change demands chaos and force.
In other words, Nuchy went straight for the jugular with this show, and to devastating effect.

My personal favourite thing about the show, and I think perhaps one of the main reasons it has resonated so strongly with so many people, are the strong themes as of art as a vehicle for change and revolution woven through the story.
Eugene's dancing, Namo's murals, the protesters' songs, Unar's street art, Yok's Proletariat Expressionism showcase (which was an absolute punch to the gut for me personally and made me want to jump up and race to the nearest art museum) ... the ways in which the series showcases art as rebellion are myriad.
But the most impactful of them all is clearly Unar and Yok's storyline. Not only is it beautifully told and deeply emotional, it also lends a lot of depth to the show's uncompromising ACAB stance by showcasing the fallacy of trying to change a corrupt system from the inside out and how oppressive power structures can do almost as much harm to those they benefit as to those they exploit. A sort of nuanced "the patriarchy hurts men too"-type look into police brutality, which I personally appreciate greatly, even if I do wish they had explored this subplot and topic more in-depth.

In short this show is, unironically, a revolutionary work of queer cinema which, while it is not entirely without flaws, is more than worth your time. I highly encourage anyone who hasn't seen it to go and watch it right now.

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Not Me, one of the Best bls till now

I've watched this series when it dropped and rewatched it since then often.
I have to say some jumping effects were a little wel ridiculous but that's such a minor thing to criticis beside anything else.
sometimes I forgot that I was watching a bl, the story was that well made.
it wasn't just a bl for the bl industry sake of it, It was even more a really good and really needed story with great plot line, wonderful acting, gorgeous BGM and more.
the topic that we're talked about within the story we're so important for the LGBTQ+ Community in Thailand and tbh even for other countries, they weren't shy about to say what needed to be said. I am truly impressed with that masterpiece and I think even now that long after I think more people should watch it bl watcher and non bl watcher.
on the bl side of things OffGun did a really amazing job here.
I truly believed both of them in there Charakters they got the characters really well.
and a big standing ovation for Gun in his role, to play 2 characters which were such opposites was really well played.
I just freaking love this series from the bottom of my heart until now.

Please go watch this Masterpiece! ♡

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if not for plot then for MUSIC AND VISUALS.

I decided to watch it after reading reviews and I know some people say the plot/storyline could've been better but let me tell you - the OST and the visuals (I mean actual views and cinematography not only actors ok) will make you finish this series in one day. I just find it so mesmerising how GOOD the music choices in this series are AND the way the camera captures all those beautiful moments, the views, the sunsets, the crowds, the city, the action scenes as well as the more "romantic" ones? Pure perfection and THIS is exactly what I needed after watching all those BLs with music that didn't match the vibe of its scenes. I really mean it. Storyline is something fresh, well-done and acting is also really really REALLY good as well as the chemistry between the main characters - it's all good. But what makes this series stand out is just like I said: music and visuals. It's just such a pleasure to see beautiful camera work along with the beautiful song that actually fits into the vibe of the series.

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IN. LOVE.

this is and probably will be one of my favourites in the BL competition.
i am absolutely in love and in awe about the story line. it´s something that is completely different than other series. it takes on serious matters and paints them how they really are. many of the scenes there touched me deeply.
the characters were so interesting and absolutely well portraited. actors did such a good job.
two songs from the OST remain in my playlist ever since i finished this series!
such good chemistry, storyline, directing, plot, cinematography.
i was in love then, im in love now and will probably be in love in the future.

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Amazing suspense and thriller drama

One of the best thriller and action bl series wow I really liked this drama the way white character was protrayed and changed all the people in the gang was really good and everybody had a great ending but somewhere I felt black had just a ending but not happy or sad and everybody were settled anyway I really like Sean and white characters it’s good that no college story or traingle story and one strong and other weak boy love story this was great drama I hope sverybody can watch this I felt like a Korean suspense drama which I never got in Thai drama that too for bl literally why didn’t I watch this drama back then omg it’s amazed me and made be more fan of the main actors all the best I hope I can see them in more dramas together I really ship them a lot I know not in real life but I want them in the dramas life more of them ❤❤

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