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3 hours ago
Katelyn Arshi:Oh wow more spoiler. Thanks for sharing. Hmmm....how come she doesn't talk about Jing in her drunken sleep?
plor20:Because he is only the first person she thinks about I'm terms of abandonment issues.
Aiyyy it reminds me of the chapter towards the end of the novel (where she poisons them) - he was the most important person in her heart, always the first in her mind. My YaoXuan heart.
Zhuan Xu’s tears fell and Xiao Yao saw it and smiled “Gege, Zhuan Xu…….I……..I forgive you! It’s too hard to hate you…….worse than cutting my own heart to pieces……I forgive you…….”
Zhuan Xu cried “Xiao Yao, tell me! If we could do it all over again and I held you close after we reunited on Five Gods Mountain, with no chance for Jing to get close to you, would you have picked me?”
Xiao Yao was about to pass out but Zhuan Xu’s words took her back to the very beginning and it was as clear as yesterday “When I was locked up in the cage by the nine-tailed fox, all I could think of was you…..all I missed was you….when you didn’t recognize me, I still used my life to save you…….back then…….there was no Jing yet………..” Xiao Yao’s voice trailed off
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My YaoXuan heart hurts a lot. Yes I remember that excerpt from the novel. In her hardest time, thinking about him was her solace. Her heart was only for her gege from the beginning but on the road to the throne, he did allow her and Jing to get close. If only he confessed before that.