Sirry Usly:
Ikr...that's why I made him this thread so he'll get some love 😭 if you think about it...he's actually so sad compared to the other three...
I mean....
1. He gets his wife stolen from him on his wedding day by a playboy and now is the laughing stock of the entire vast wilderness just to later find out his best friend had something to do with it even after giving his blessing
2. He finds out his sister is insane and due to sibling loyalty now has to help her in killing his other best friend's cousin who is his ex-finance who he finds out his best friend is in love with
3. After this whole thing his sister is basically dying inside so he attempts to make huge strides in the war with the rebel ChengRong army only to end up dying at such a young age
4. The girl he likes has 3 other men way ahead of him that she's in love with or was in love with at one point
Whenever I think about these things I stop feeling as bad for XL and myself because I realize in some aspects XL had it better than FL.
At least to me, it seemed from the novel and in the show that he knows the feelings he keeps hidden are reciprocated and his wishes are fulfilled i.e. the love of his life being able to protect herself, ending up with a good man who won't abandon her that she actually loves as well and dying an honorable death and securing a burial place for his fellow soldiers.
Although Xuan promised FengLong to treat CRXY better after his death we have no way of knowing if that's actually the case tbh despite that being his dying wish.