know am the odd one out, but really don't…

know am the odd one out, but really don't like Team calling Win "Hia" it is weird, calling him 'brother' let alone how fast he started using that nick, considering how he was fighting feelings n the confusion about what he was feeling. but ignored it, in this ep after Win saving him - his use of that nick was jarring and weird to hear. ***************************************************but all that is ignorable when u r confronted with the 180 Win does by the end - i really haven't understood what his 'trauma' is. in the 1st ep he said much of the same - meaning the resort will never be his, cause he the 2nd son. so no matter how hard he works, it will automatically go to Wan as the 1st born. get that logic - but what has he lost?!? he has his family; parents, siblings. and the more u see of Wan and Wiew - the relationship between the siblings, there is No rivalry to speak off. they there for one another, even if they fight. it's kids being kids or brothers being brother's, not anything worrying or ugly. plus he doesn't seem to be hurting financially, thus his parents not neglecting him either - so i ask again, was is Win's problem?!? ********************** he is the one telling Team that he will only have him, that he will always be there for him etc.. now this 180, am so confused what is behind this behavior - ********************************************************************************************************as is i was a bit worried about how much Team was relying on him, cause yeah it's great that Win is offering his bed/comfort and assurance that he is there, so Team can get a good nights sleep. but that doesn't solve the problem and now that Win has cold feet, Team left out in the cold literally (ノω<。)ノ ugh idk what to think or say ***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************side note as much as i enjoy the mini side stories, am glad they miniscule and not overshadowing the main plot, that was one of my main worries going into this. that the plot will focus on other's and the mains will get lost -

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A phenomenal episode

Boun and Prem did a very good job at expressing all these intense and complex emotions. (and ugh why does Boun look so good omg). On one hand, Team is opening up more and more, and being a little more honest with himself everyday. (Must've been scary to re-live his childhood trauma). On the other hand, Win is afraid. He almost lost one of the only things he wanted to call his, someone who became so important to him without him even realizing it. Imagine wanting something so bad, for the longest time, but when you finally have it, you lose it forever. With love comes a risk. There are so many ways he could lose what they have. Just like he said last episode, until Team doesn't need him anymore, until someone else takes care of him better than Win, until Team gets bored of him or until whenever. (Notice that Win only ever spoke of Team ending things between them.) But death? That's too much, too soon, too abrupt, too final. He is scared of losing Team, of not being enough to keep him safe, of being too late when it actually matters. Bee and Prince are kind of growing on me lmao. Who would've thought? Tul was so cute, so quick to say yes just to be closer to Waan lmao. He definitely should've told him the truth though. Waan is probably gonna feel betrayed when he finds out. We also learned a bit more about what happened in Team's past. I'm still not sure whether Ton actually died or not (idk maybe him mom assumed he was dead but then he wakes up or something idk let me hope) but if he did, that's just 10 times more heartbreaking.

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