I don`t really remember why i picked Tears in Heaven to watch, especially since i rarely watch chinese dramas. Must have been because of some intriguing videos on youtube and the alluring storyline that is a great potential of emotional angst i just craved. I have read great stuff about the novel this drama is adapted from, i made a research about the author Fei Wo Si Cun who is literally FAMOUS for her many angsty romances that got adapted into dramas like one of my favourites "Siege in Fog".

Watching the drama with its beautiful OST and memorable characters was a treat and the first 20 episodes were great. I loved the slow burn but intense love-story between Du Xiaosu & Lei Yuzheng. How they actually bonded because of their love for Zhen Rong who died so tragically. I feel like the main plot and focus was lost after Yuzheng got into jail in ep 21. I knew the writers shied away from the heavy angst that was in the novel and how deeply twisted and toxic main-leads relationship actually was, and how sad it actually became (as i have read some spoilers of the novel) but the saving grace was somehow the redemption of a villanious greedy character Lin Xiang Yuan who i actually came to ship with Fan Lu. They literally felt like a old couple still in love. This drama could have been sooooo much better without all the business politics and investigation that dominated for the entire other half od this drama. Felt like i was wasting so much time watching it. But i am glad i finished it. I think i will always remember Tears in Heaven for the melancholic and sad feeling it could give me sometimes.