genuinely. how am i supposed to move on with life. i cant begin to describe the extent to which this film has left me damaged

seeing minato walking through stages of confusion, denial, anger and desperation evoked so many emotions and memories buried deep inside me. his story has simultaneously comforted and wounded my inner child.

minatos constant struggle between wanting to accept himself and wanting to be by yoris side against his fear of judgement and his fear of being abnormal leads him to self destruction. the contentment he feels when he is with yori against the confusion he feels when yori is too close to him. the happiness he feels while watching yori being himself against the helplessness he feels while watching yori being abused. the build up of conflicting emotions results in minato not being able to manage his anger. he destroys things because he cant destroy people. minatos anger is directed towards yoris bullies, yoris dad and the world but mostly himself. he cant come to accept who he truly is and he is unable to protect the person he loves. minato destroys things because he cant destroy himself.

but what matters most is despite his own inner turmoil, minato never once tries to change yori. he never makes him feel any less human. "you were always normal," minato accepts yori wholeheartedly and loves yori for exactly who he is. despite everything, he escapes from the shackles of the real monster; a twisted society and attains freedom with the one he loves. where there is love there is life!! everyone deserves to be surrounded by love without judgement and everyone deserves to love with freedom.

anyways yeah best film ever made. its split into three acts, the story itself plays out in a confusing back and forth timeline but i think thats what makes it so great. ur left putting the pieces together but when everything does come together it will blow ur mind! the details are insanely genius from start to finish, i pick up on a new detail every day. ALSO, the music!!! the final scene with the score by ryuichi sakamoto was heartbreakingly beautiful, it truly tied the film together :,)

i reco this film to everyone !!

p.s do not watch this movie every single day it will change the trajectory of your life