Interesting to Speculate on

I love reading peoples thoughts and saw some here, speculating on what Sung Kyu (the adopted brother) felt especially during the ending scene where his smile disappears. So I decided to give my own two cents. In the beginning it felt like it was already shown to me that Sung Kyu was pretty apathetic and didn't necessarily feel strongly towards acting a specific way to be liked. Barely being able to choke out the words 'it's delicious......... mom'. He wasn't shown trying to connect with Sung woo other than randomly picking him up at school once either.
The first time Sung Kyu shows assertiveness is when the shower scene happens. Because of this detail I didn't feel like he tried to appease Sung woo like someone else did. (which is why I like seeing other peoples perspective since it can be so different!)
I also don't think it was suppose to be about sexuality at all and whether or not Sung Kyu is attracted to men in general. For me this was more an exploration on how Sung Kyu didn't really feel anything and therefore tried to fill the emptiness within him with a new family and the shower scene mostly to me looked like 2 very empty and emotionally tired people that desperately needed to feel 'something', just anything. But just like most one night stands, it didn't fix the initial problem, that Sung Kyu felt a loss of identity and therefore remained apathetic after not being able to find it with his new family either.

Thinking back, Everyone in this movie seemed to fill up the emptiness with something, The mother keeps filling the emptiness the loss of her son caused her, by adopting multiple people. Sung Woo seems to fill up his emptiness coming from a broken home with physical affection from a significant other. And Sung Kyu as a grown man being adopted into a new family with a new identity because he feels like a nobody.

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Please read this before watching (someone who actually finished this show)

You know how sometimes in competitions you have all the judges voting you off but they all have this one golden button opportunity to vote you in even when no one else believes in you?
This is me giving this show my golden button.
Not because it is amazing, but because I believe in the potential of this show and everyone involved.
I just know that even with all the negative reviews, there will be someone who will absolutely love this show so I hope that that person won't let themselves be scared away by the others.
''Fish upon the sky'' was that for me, with all the negative comments and reviews I saw, I watched it nonetheless and had honestly the best time I've had with a show.
So maybe this is your Fish upon the sky ;)

Now the short break down of my rating is simply that they had the right material, the right angle, the right blue print.
But I think when it went through editing, the pacing got a little messed up which got a lot of people annoyed.
All the way up to episode 7 there isn't a whole lot that seems to happen, which is bad for a weekly viewing, but I've thought about this and if you can watch this all in one go now that it's finished airing that pacing will feel completely different.
Instead of waiting 7 weeks for something to happen, it would make a lot more sense than some other shows that have everything happen within 4 episodes and you're left wondering what the remaining 8 could even be about.
Yes it still follows the cliche misunderstandings, the theatrical smut scenes and some good old fashioned annoying face palm moments especially in those first 7 episodes. BUT I actually started loving this show when I realized how deep and psychologically real this show was. The relationships all feel super real, not like the fluffy typical bl's where people are together for the sake of both being attractive.
I honestly regret reading the comments every week as I was trying to enjoy this show because it tainted my experience. Me liking it and with full anticipation reading the comments to see who I could chat with, kept being followed with an icy cold shower when people who had stopped watching WEEKS ago were still hate commenting.
I know some people tried to defend it when I mentioned the hate hype, but as someone who has seen a lot of real time comment sections on other shows, this show definitely suffered from a hate hype.
I would see the same scene unfold (and not better may I add) in a different show and people would eat that shit up like it was dinner time and we had all been starving. But whenever I came here that exact same scene would be drilled into the ground with people making this seem like a dumpster fire. One that they enjoyed watching as it burned to the ground.
So I might re-watch this when everything has calmed down.

And last but not least, the synopsis. The synopsis got recently changed and most people who watched this show saw a completely different summary on this page. The show is pretty much about what you can now read, but mind you that most people went into this thinking it was a completely different story because the summary said something else.
This probably heavily influenced a lot of peoples opinions as well as that most people went in with high expectations on what they thought this should have been based upon episode 0.
The one thing I learned as a writer is that you can't deflect what you had in mind and rate something based upon that, watch it for what it was intended by the people who made it and you'll enjoy yourself a lot more! :)


NOW LEAVE IF YOU DON'T WANT SPOILERS: Nine's psychology break down.

Nine. Hate him or love him, he is genuinely the best developed character in this show. And when I realized that, I enjoyed this whole show so much more. Nine isn't a good guy, he isn't a bad guy either, he is supposed to be morally grey.
The quick story line we follow goes like this: Nine meets Dao at a resort in episode 0 when he is freshly broken up and they hit it off. They have a good time, sleep together and go back to their respective lives. Both of them acknowledge that they don't necessarily want it to end and they start texting. But as Nine gets back with his ex he essentially ends up ghosting Dao until he finds Dao 3 months later. He figures out where Dao works which so happens to be the company of an old friend and decides to invest into the company to get closer to Dao again. Sounds like shitty behavior right? I mean make up your mind. Nine still really interested in Dao decides to pursue Dao even though he still has a girlfriend and Dao is semi trying to date Nine's old friend Tee. Lots of tension between Nine and Dao unfold as the 2 go through this push and pull, Dao being scared of getting hurt in a genuine connection decides to go with Tee whom he wouldn't end up heart broken by even if it didn't work out and Nine unable to leave his girlfriend is now shown to not only have no loyalty to his girlfriend, but even shown to have cheated on her with other men prior (presumably). Once Nine and his girlfriend finally do break up and when he and Dao get closer together we are left with the idea that he isn't a good love interest. If he cheats with you, who says he won't cheat on you.
As Dao and Nine get together we get to hear exactly why Nine did what he did and everything falls into place.
Now if you have your judgement ready before this it would feel hard to back pedal, as someone did comment on my posts that they only did that to make Nine look good and manipulate the story. I don't agree. To me it all looked intentional and well thought out but the unfortunate thing is that it came too late which made people already drop this before we got our end conclusion on Nine.

First of I LOVE Nine, no I don't love his character, I love how well he was developed which you rarely get to see in bl's.
Nine truly is morally grey and extremely real in my opinion. Let's go back to the beginning and review why this all happened. When Nine meets Dao he is freshly out of a relationship, one that was extremely toxic and mentally abusive. Yes, Nine got mentally abused ladies and gentlemen. I know many that didn't finish the show wouldn't even realize that..
So he meets Dao, a guy that catches his eye. They grow closer pretty quickly which does tend to happen when both people come from toxic situations. (Dao having had his own heart break with Tee as they have dated in the past and Tee ended up hurting him. ) as they hit it off the two end up spending the night together right before they are about to leave to go back to their own lives. Both Nine and Dao liked each other enough to want to continue whatever was budding between them and they end up communicating over text until one day Nine stops texting back. When Nine got back from his trip his ex girlfriend reached out to him saying she wanted to get back together. I've seen surprisingly a lot of people that still didn't understand why he got back together with her even after it was explained, so I will give my explanation on this. When the couple were together the first time around everything was good when it was good, but oh boy was it bad when things were bad. Nine's gf Praew would throw things around and scream in his face simply for being spotted together by paparazzi. Which was supposed to indicate how bad her temper was. We see this happen a couple of times. We witness as Praew dramatically tries to open a bottle of pills that end up spilling everywhere as an attempt to manipulate Nine. Everything was his fault, he didn't want to see her succeed and he can't even support her. This is all being said by Praew because of the paparazzi photo, that in her words, could ruin her career opportunities. We see Praew's behavior a couple of times when she visits the company Nine and Dao work at when they aren't around and she ends up wrecking Dao's desk out of rage. There is even a scene where a highly intoxicated Nine is laying on his bed half asleep and Praew tries to sleep with him. Half passed out Nine obviously isn't moving until he managed to push her off and she get's really upset at his rejection, when what she was doing would constitute as sexual assault. This is the kind of relationship Nine is in and has been in for a long time. Straight up abusive. Now for those who were lucky enough to not have dealt with any form of abuse, this makes it ridiculously hard on the victim to walk away no matter how bad things get. When they were broken up, Nine genuinely thought it was finally the end for them, until Praew showed up and wanted him back. Knowing this information about Praew it doesn't come as a surprise that Candy, a friend of Nine, later in the show reveals to Dao and us that Praew threatened to hurt herself if Nine didn't get back with her. Thus bringing us to where Nine gets back together with Praew. He ends up ghosting Dao due to this, most likely because he never meant or wanted to say goodbye to Dao and couldn't face that confrontation. To have to reject the person he liked, for the person who abused him, he simply couldn't do it so instead he said nothing. Someone mentioned that he could have told Dao about the situation with Praew, but that's not very typical for a victim to do. Especially when he didn't know if this was temporary or not. Nine probably assumed being with Praew was going to be it, there was no way out unless she let him go and he knew she wasn't going to. Onto Nine's friends with benefits play buddies. The show alludes to the idea that Nine has been having male play buddies over, in the 3 months that he doesn't speak to Dao. Since Nine has been in a long term relationship with Praew, his female partner, i think this part is super interesting. To me this was purposefully done to show his desire for Dao, a man. We don't know how often Nine has dated men or has been attracted to men, but there is a likelihood that the reason he cheated on Praew with specifically men, is because they served as a substitute for Dao. The one man he couldn't get off his mind. Cheating is never okay, but we understand by now that Nine isn't in a voluntary relationship. If he leaves, Praew may or may not die or at least get seriously hurt. This is all that is on his mind as someone who still cares about her well being. This little fact brings a lot of complexity to the situation and makes you wonder if Nine is bad for cheating or if we can somehow find ourselves sympathizing with his actions. When it doesn't feel safe to leave an abusive partner, can we find ourselves rationalizing infidelity?
When Nine finds Dao after 3 months, it is obvious that he has never forgotten about Dao and that the feelings that grew once upon a trip were still there. And maybe even stronger than before. Nine can't possibly let go of Dao again, so he does everything he can to get closer to Dao again. Nine and Dao do end up sleeping together not long after their reunion, but it is quickly followed by Dao rejecting Nine and telling him he doesn't want anything to do with him again. Dao enters a situationship with Tee that same night. Still struggling between his current situation with Praew, his feelings and desires for Dao and the now newly established situation between Dao and Tee, Nine is in over his head. He tries to keep Praew happy but can't fake interest any longer, he wants to be with Dao but Dao has shut him out and now he is working at a company amid the uncomfortable love triangle between him, Dao and Tee when no one can know that Nine and Dao have a history together.
This alone would make most of us act in irrational and dumb ways, although there is never an excuse for forcing kisses onto someone else. Nine makes himself increasingly look worse because he is ill equipped to deal with such complex emotions (which is completely understandable, I would be too) and only has the support of Candy who, even though she is adorable, isn't the right person for advice on this at all. She is a pretty passive person, who hates conflict and tries to please everyone, resulting in both her and Nine never making a clear decisions and stringing others along. Candy does this in her friendships and Nine in his relationships. As Nine grows more serious about Dao everyday and less interested in Praew we finally have our climax in episode 7 when he simply can't do it any longer. Nine snaps, it is simply too much, he has to overcome his fear and break up with Praew. This scene was incredibly painful to watch for me since it hit kinda close to home. Adult relationships can be really fucking messy and so can the break ups be. As Nine breaks up with Praew he still lingers for a moment, allowing her to throw herself at him as a last attempt to convince him to stay. To prove that the love is still there. He doesn't waver since is mind is made up, but he is hurting for her which makes rejecting her still too hard. Until he finally slowly pushes her back, makes sure she is dressed and tells her he will always be there for her when she needs him. He still has nothing but love for her and truly wants the best for her. It was one of the hardest things both of them had to go through, but they went through it together and it was the healthiest option for both. Praew being shown a much healthier person post break up as well.
Now being fully single again Nine also seems different, more sure and genuine as he has nothing left to cloud his mind and distort his actions. Which brings me to my final point. Nine is a good boyfriend. Okay okay okay this one is controversial. Yes he cheated on Praew and we already discussed whether or not we can sympathize with his actions. But, we notice how, when Nine isn't being abused, he is genuine and he would do anything to be with the person he loves. Nine is happier, more calm, more understanding and less pushy. When he break up with Praew we even see him giving Dao more space and being more sincere with Dao as well. Even stepping back when he realizes Dao and Tee might seriously get together at the company get away. It isn't until Dao opens up about his feelings that Nine completely gives in and becomes Dao's and Dao's alone. Which is probably the reason why when Dao accepts him back their relationship goes from 0 to 100. With all the angst and fear of losing Dao and having to let go of Dao so many times for other peoples sake, Nine just wants to spend his time with Dao to the fullest. And that feeling alone is enough for him to promise Dao to be his forever with a ring, to bind the two together in a connection that belongs to no one else but them.

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I'm tired... Also, justice for Rit please.. I beg of you..

Okay.. do not crucify me for this, but god this was exhausting to watch... It successfully made me feel stuck in a loop with them.
By episode 10 I felt depressed realizing I still had 3 episodes left to watch and it just felt tedious...
Just like someone else mentioned, ep 10 was definitely my least favorite episode and admittedly I sped through the last 10 minutes. But unfortunately that was just the beginning of the end for me. I ended up watching most of the other episodes on 2x speed, which I have never done before. To be fair I also skipped through manner of death so perhaps this is just not my thing, but every choice made just aggravated me.
Now let me say that I understand where people are coming from when they hype this show up. It's different and more mature rather than your regular fluffy BL. But 'Not me' (another 'not fluffy' bl ) was easily incredible on its own and compared to this it is a god send that no one but a celestial being could have created and blessed us with. I usually don't like comparing shows, especially when they are vastly different from one another. But to call this the best show when other shows like that are out there feels a little bit too strongly worded... I also think the experience usually feels better when you watch it slowly over time, because you tend to forget some of the details. I on the other hand binged it within 24 hours and witnessed a different flow because of that.

Side note : OMG Jinta's laughter at 2x speed sounds like a reptilian call xD Why is that honestly the best thing ever.

Okay let's get into the show a little more. When I watch fluffy shows I normally only review them on whether they made me have a giggle and some sweet aww moments. If you can do that, you are pretty much good to go. With shows like this however I get really analytical and I crave the intellectual stimulation. This show in particular reminded me of watching a horror movie where all the characters just simply don't have the ability to rationally think for a moment.
At episode 2, I already found myself screaming at Tin to do an autopsy and testing to find the actual cause of death. Sure the accident was what caused him to go to the hospital, but how exactly did it occur and why exactly was CPR not enough to save him. Instead we see a montage of him doing the exact same things over and over and over again for what seems like weeks reliving the same moment. Not a single time did it occur to him to find out more about his patient, the accident or why the loop even exists. Which SPOILER ALERT, never gets clarified. The loop just exists and that's it. Jinta is a being with too much free time and thought this would be a fun case to solve. When Tin finally gets to the point of maybe trying to stop the accident rather than trying to save Tol in the aftermath, he genuinely thinks he can just walk up to another person in scrubs at a uni and tell them they will die tonight? Or you know start a sentence with: hey is this your girlfriend? You may want to be careful.. OFCOURSE he would bust your face in when you start a convo with a stranger like that... How is this man qualified for anything? It's not his intelligence that worries me, it's his rational thinking and human insight that seems to be lacking.
I'm just gonna throw it randomly in here, but I don't like Gap. And I don't understand how Gap and Sing even got together in the end. There was nothing consistent in the last few loops, everything was already different from the get go before they even made a change in the timelines. Somehow that resulted in Gap and Sing getting together off screen in Tol's time travel loop. Which didn't surprise me, because I was wondering how on earth they would get the two of them together when they also are reset every time. Watching this all in one go also made me hyper aware of how little romantic development there is between Tol and Tin until Tin DECIDES that he needs to be Tol's bf to end the loop. This was more a head decision that he made rather than being shown having genuine feelings for Tol and being unable to help himself in wanting to be with him. Tol also starts to remember some fragments of the past cycle in order to obviously speed up the justification for his 2 day turn around in seemingly falling for Tin when he has a gf. (Okay this entire review comes with side notes but, I know we all love and appreciate that gender isn't made into a big deal. But even though this is a BL show, some people just genuinely are straight or prefer to be in straight relationships regardless of their orientation. The assumption that everyone will swing both ways all the time or even by default will be into the other person is a little tiring sometimes too.) Anyway apparently the only thing that will give Tol a heart attack without fail is to see Mai with another guy at the party, but being chased with a gun and having your Bf? die was only a bit of a depressive slump. Okay okay I won't be too critical off this, since heart attacks don't consistently work where they will occur in any stressful or painful/overwhelming situation. I just took note of it, but I'll let that one slide.
Quick question however, how did Art choke on the 17th when he was always fine on the 18th? And the same with our little kitty. Why do things change the further back in time you go before the butterfly effect can even do it's thing? Why does nothing that Tin does on his phone or notebook get erased? I seriously doubt he looked Tol up in the loop on the 17th, so why was he still in his FB search history. Why is everyone so sloppy with coming up with decent working plans. It's like they go with whatever just pops up first in their minds. Gap just stands still for 3 minutes straight, listening to how Sing is held under gun shot and all he does is repeatedly go ''hello? Hello sing?? Sing? hello?'' ,,, my dude, are seriously going to be this helpless?
Tin just simply stares and waits until the guy with the gun at the award party finds Rit and Tol under the table before making his move.. Why not cause a distraction? Why not just immediately plan for attack? Why did you look like you were going to walk straight up towards him when you first spotted him? So many questionsssss. But this one is seriously one that bothers me ... here it comes.. WHY DID YOU NOT SNEAK AWAYYYY! When Tin and Tol are hiding, the guy literally passes by them without seeing them in some god send miracle. But what does Tin decide to do instead of sneaking out of the door? He SNEAKS up to the guy to choke him, gets overpowered and shot -.- this literal eejit! I don't think I need to even talk about Doctor Doi, he is just a mess and I don't feel like discussing him at all. Whether on purpose or by accident, it's fine, his little raging dog moment in the end was just exhausting but I sped through it so idk it's fine. I'm fine, we're all fine. My sanity is gone, but I'm fine. At episode 11/12 I had officially given up, my energy was simply gone and I couldn't master any more words to argue about the never ending saga of events. I just can't ... Also... sweetie if you have to pretend to be dead, don't breathe/// In the ending scene where they do an autopsy on the doctor you can totally see his stomach move up and down.
Moral of the story?": Why does this exist, I don't know. There is no point being made, there is no resolution to why this show even exists and what or who Jinta was and the mysterious time loop that all started on one faithed night on the 18th at 10:55pm.

Last but not least, can someone pretty pretty pleaseeeeee give Rit his justice. Rit was my favorite character the entire show and I felt SO bad for him. He got done dirty by almost everyone, always involuntarily gets in the middle of chaos and simply deserves so much more. I don't care if it a man or a woman, I just need someone to show him some love. I was so sad when I realized he wouldn't be paired up with anyone, but also slightly relieved because no one was that likeable. Most characters were either not on screen enough to get to know them or they weren't all that kind. Even Tin and Tol aren't necessarily kind people. Tin does whatever works best for him and Tol seems like a moody teenager most of the time and hurts Rit in the process.
All I want is justice for Rit.

After finishing this show I needed to watch some stand up in order to get my sanity back.

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Nicely done, just not my genre

I'm giving it a 7 on my review even though on my personal rating for the show I did rate it a little lower out of bias.
I just binged this show after having binged Cherry blossoms after winter and the last episode of both CutiePie and Secret crush on you, so I could have also been a bit worn out from all the shows in one day.

To start off, I totally understand why so many people love this one, it's not really my style so it fell a little flat. But because I can objectively see the appeal I did want to rate it higher in my review. This genuinely isn't a bad show at all, it just simply felt... like I was being shown things I couldn't feel. I had a hard time feeling the chemistry between the leads, especially when it came down to Si won's character and what made him fall for Da woon. There wasn't really a build up, which can be quite tricky with such little footage for a show, so I do commend everyone who worked on this show for trying their best at creating a full fleshed out story. I can see how some are enamored with the cinematography as well. I did like that they used the lectures as a way of hinting on different directing and filming styles in the show. It made me, someone who doesn't know a lot about these things, pay attention to them and feel excited to notice those little details. I also liked how subtle the last episode felt, with presumably from what I experienced seeing Da woon have dream about making up with Si won. The transition was so smooth that I wasn't sure if it was a dream until the next day occurred. It did have some really beautiful points in the show.
All in all if you like the more scenic and serious shows this will definitely be a nice watch.
I wouldn't call it fluffy or cute. More so like a slice of life type of feel.

I did really appreciate how real they tried to make the kissing scenes. Instead of barely touching lips, it felt genuine.
The sub plot of Si won's past that came full circle in the end was nicely done as well.
I think I just expected something a little different from the given Synopsis on this site. It was hard to tell that Da woon was suppose to give off the vibe that he had everything. And the rivalry felt from Si won's side didn't feel as apparent as I thought it would from the beginning. It's one of those shows where I understand why things evolved the way they did, but I just simply didn't feel part of that journey.

I still recommend it as it is relatively short and there were some really nicely done and beautiful moments that could easily inspire someone, especially those in the creative fields such as myself!

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Stunning

I must say that I felt a little intimidated after reading the synopsis. Dealing with my own set of mental health issues I wasn't sure if this was going to be super heavy and a tough watch. But today I finally went for it and wow I loved it!
Something about this short series just really made me love it.
The story was simple, not a lot happens and yet it was everything I wanted it to be. I definitely didn't feel weirded out by the relationship at all, which some people in the comments mentioned.
Wu Zeng just had that feeling of someone who would grow old with you nailed down, no matter the hardships and wavering feelings he wouldn't just be your lover he would be there as your companion. So much so that the energy shift from the flashback was really apparent even without needing any dialogue. It made me really wish to find someone with that same energy. It was such a well done performance by both actors.
I also loved how even though he didn't really understand it, the grandpa gave his best support.
There was no weirdness around the same sex relationship, which left so much space for the actual storyline.

The only thing that took a point away from this show was the random side story in the last episode that had no reason to be there. There was no build up, explanation or resolution. It just existed.
Absolutely loved it and will probably rewatch it from time to time.

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My new rewatch show

I was so hesitant to watch this show as it isn't my normal kind of drama I go for, but oh my days....
From the first episode I was absolutely hooked, the music gave me life and the actors are an all time fav!
It's one of those shows that I like to binge watch when I'm in just the right mood, you definitely want to watch it pretty rapidly to keep the flow of the emotion.

And that's exactly what this show did for me. Everything made me feel bittersweet, but in a good way. It made me feel both the losses in life and the hope for a better future. If I had to describe this show I'd say it feels like the moment right before dawn. That moment when the world is the quietest, the air feels chilly and the knowing that another day has left you, but a new day is right around the corner to shed light and warmth upon you again. That's what this entire show made me feel like. It made me want to feel alive.

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Well... That was something...

Okay so let me start out with saying that I thought the couple was cute... just not in this show.
I also want to come out and say that I myself am a writer, so I am pretty picky on what I do and don't like. Although if it was an all around a fun thing to watch, I tend to overlook a lot of things that I simply couldn't with this show.
I will try what I would have changed personally to make this show a more enjoyable watch for me to write at the end of this review. Just some small changes that would have made the original.. a little more watchable without changing it too much.
So if that's something you are curious about, you can just scroll down and skip the rant hahaha
I honestly personally always love hearing how people would change things!

There was so much about this show that makes me want to go on a rant... But let me start with saying how much I LOVED the music! It was such a bob! I also like the idea of a roadtrip show that has a couple getting progressively closer as they go on this quest. That being said... it wasn't what I hoped for and got progressively worse instead. I Initially didn't think I was going to watch this one when I knew it would be kinda genderbend, but with all the raving reviews I gave it a shot anyway.
Boy was i disappointed...
It starts out with Win being an absolute child throwing a tantrum for no reason. (This may just be an opinion thing, but I honestly didn't think Korn being in the Will of Win's father was that big of a deal, when Win explicitly states right before that scene that Korn is family to him. But then proceeds to immediately throw him out of the house and cut of all communication, demanding his family to not talk to Korn either, because his father actually treated him like... well, family.)
Anyway some reviews promised that Win would become better with time and to that I must say... sure in the last 2 episodes my most hated character turned out to be my least hated, when everyone else just got that much worse.

I do agree with someone else saying that I would have liked more scenic scenes, exploring the culture and traditions since it is a roadtrip show. Anyway here are some points that bugged me:

- The aunt and uncle added nothing to the story and if they had been left out, nothing would have changed AT ALL.
- I also disliked the mothers lack of backbone with them and how irresponsible she was with the holy water. She quickly turned into the main villain in the last episode for absolutely no good reason either. Saying that she deliberately planned out the Will to break up Korn & Win's friendship, because of what?
- The doctor friend wasn't bad... just not that interesting and definitely not the friend I would go to for relationship advice.
- The sister was ... a sister I guess. She seemed to have zero autonomy tbh. Kind of like an empty shell that was treated as a plot device. She is frail and innocent, but secretly talks to Korn to anger Win, so Win could end up in a car crash with her. She was the reason why they had to go on a quest. Win is in her body, making it so he has the deepest insecurity as to why Korn likes him. For him or for Lin? She blindly follows Non's advice and gets herself engaged to someone she has no feelings for, only to hopefully have Win confess to Korn (WHICH I WOULDN'T DO EITHER IF I WERE HIM! - IF MY CRUSH GOT ENGAGED ... ESPECIALLY TO MY SIBLING) did she have any autonomy of her own?
- Unpopular opinion... but I hated their first kiss. I hated how I couldn't enjoy it when it was honestly the most intense and moving kiss in the entire show and somehow I couldn't help but be conscious of the fact that he was kissing Lin's body.
This upset me on multiple levels, 1 being that Lin's body is technically unconscious... therefore this does in fact classify as assault in my opinion. Since Lin never consented to kissing Korn even if she isn't conscious of it and Win is the one experiencing the kiss. 2. I would freak out as Win as well since I would be confused as to who Korn was imagining kissing in that moment, especially when he deliberately tells the mom afterwards that he took advantage of Lin based on his emotions and wants to take responsibility for this?! Korn.. sweetie.. tell me honestly, who were you really imaging, cause I is confusion right now.
- The time jumps. Is it just me or did I get really confused over how the car ride took 17 hours to get from one temple to the other, but they were able to get back to the farm for Katin in less than what seemed like an hour?
- Why after the quest was fulfilled and Lin supposedly is getting engaged to Korn and Win and Korn are friends again does it take a whole month for Korn to even pop back up on the farm with no contact from anyone in the meantime?
- WHY ON EARTH would Korn say yes to the engagement? And than proceed to tell Win that their kiss had meant something and ask Win if he really has no feelings for him. I'm sorry but why on earth would I tell you that I love you if you just got yourself engaged to my bloody sister, making it seem as though you mentally were with her during our trip since you said you wanted to take responsibility for kissing her??? Nope nope nope.

PS: I love how Lin's period only lasted a day... gosh a girl can only dream xD

Lastly this is some simple changes I would have made personally:
After the 3rd temple Win does in the original start to warm up a little more towards Korn as he is thinking about what this anger truly has brought either one of them. I would have liked that to continue more smoothly with little hints such as Win at first stubbornly refusing to eat before the temple visit and afterwards awkwardly start to accept Korns attempts at making sure Win eats. This will also be noticed by Korn and show some relieve on his side by this subtly change in attitude. These little hints growing bigger when Win unexpectedly does something for Korn instead, since they bonded over food it was nice when he got Korn coffee. I would have liked to see him do things like that more often without having to deny that he did it because he cared. Maybe instead of denial, shrug it off like it's no big deal whilst having lingering longing eyes on Korn as he takes his sip. I personally would have unfortunately have to scrap the cave kiss T . T
Simply because it is still Lin's body and I can't get over that fact. Instead I would have had them have the entire scene stay pretty much the same up until the point where they are about to kiss. Win would look down, because he can't accept it quite yet being in Lin's body and feeling that conflict of desire vs fear vs honoring his sister. (whom he still thinks is in love with Korn as well.) Korn obviously asks him what is wrong and Win tells him he can't do that to his sister. Implying on both residing in her body as well as kissing the guy she might like. leaving room for interpretation on Korn's side.
After the bodies swap back, I would scrap the whole engagement thing by having Lin feel to passive to tell her mom she doesn't want to get engaged rather than it being a set up. Than have Korn come over to the house for the engagement talk, which makes Win storm out because he can't handle the rejection, being certain that Korn & Lin like each other. Korn ends up actually rejecting the engagement upon mutual agreement with Lin, as his rejection gives her the courage she needs to tell her mom she doesn't want it either (which suits her personality more in the way she is portrayed, rather than someone who plans out a set up that could hurt their brother) Korn wants to tell Win, but Win is gone. He ends up looking for Win when he finally finds him at their spot. They have a whole moment of will they, won't they because both are still scared out of their minds to actually confess, but Korn tells him that it has always been Win he was looking at and they share a kiss. Then it ends with all the fluffy scenes and the farm becoming more well off as we gush over the peppered in kissing scenes of Korn & Win.

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With friends like these, I'd rather stay single....

I've got a serious bone to pick with this show! (I'm going full rage mode, so enjoy:$ )
Don't get me wrong, I did kinda enjoy the show enough to binge it but then again I am used to way worse.
First off, I feel like all the characters were trying to gaslight me into thinking that Jin was crappy, not to be trusted, bomb deserved someone who readily could be accepting of him and obviously Jin is a player...
Did we get to know the same Jin as you??
I swear the show starts with Jin breaking up with Aim because he thinks she cheated on him (which btw never gets cleared up or clarified??) not because he is nilly willy breaking girls hearts left and right as some characters make it seem out to be. Then we find out later that Aim presumably never really cared to be with Jin in the first place and just went along with it even though her cousin Bomb was into him. Bomb also presumably is the first guy Jin ever fell for so this boy just kinda needs his time to figure out what that means to him and how he feels about the whole thing, which is understandable for everyone but all the other characters in this show. Bomb literally tells Jin he can take his time to figure out his feelings (since he just got out of a break up don't forget and now is falling for her freaking cousin who happens to be a guy.) But within what couldn't have been more than a few days he does a 180 and decides to completely avoid Jin? Per advice from Jack... (and this will apparently become the first clue to the endless saga of unfortunate events planned by the worst cupids I've ever seen)
Yes Jin is talking to Som at the same time as he is getting closer to Bomb, but they aren't dating and it's not even that strange for people around his age to talk to multiple people in order to figure out what you even like. Rather that than just jumping into one thing and continuing with another because you hadn't taken the time to make up your mind.
But when Jin on his own finally decides he chooses bomb and reject Som, bomb ofcourse chooses to officially avoid Jin, for absolutely no good reason other than insecurity. Causing Jin to now also feel insecure about Bomb and understandably feeling ignored by him. When they do eventually see each other by chance, Bomb even acts relatively hostile as though he already gave up on the whole thing with Jin. But then continues a few days later to sing a song at the bar about always being there???? Jin calls bomb later that night and the two meet up, but Bomb still acts super annoyed and impatient with Jin. Somehow after all of that behavior Jin still ends up finding the courage to be honest about how hurt he was and how he feels as he is crying in front of this whole ass undeserving ass man. Something Bomb literally never continues to do no matter what misunderstanding he entraps himself in. The two of them get together and you think 'awesome... but there are still too many episodes left so what could possibly go wrong?' Well I'd say Bomb's friends and cousin drugging him so he might take advantage of a drunk Jin who had to tell Bomb not just once no, but TRICE, is a fair guess. Sweety that is 2 no's too many times. 1 no should always be enough. But ofcourse they slipped a condom in Bomb's back pocket because you know you got to at least stay safe... Yet since they never ended up doing anything the freaking condom just ends up in a big misunderstand between Bomb and Jin later on when it falls out of his pocket. This is chaotic mess number 2 caused by the friend group. Luckily Jin is mature enough to yet again voice his insecurities and they clear the air right away. This is also when Bomb tells Jin that he has been in communication with a girl that tried to court him before, but hey it's only business? (still don't know what that means, since she never appears nor do we know what kind of business they have with each other.) and has the AUDACITY to mention either in this scene or a scene later on, i don't remember, that he didn't make a big deal out of Jin talking to Som. Sir... you ignored him for a WEEK because she helped him to the hospital when he injured his leg. And you weren't even dating, the f' you mean?? Jin also completely stopped talking to Som after he rejected her that same night after the hospital. Anyway moving on to Jack telling Bomb he shouldn't always trust Jin. Yeah you know Jack... one of Jin's best friends? Apparently telling someone they can't trust their significant other is a way of matchmaking now. I know it's new me too, but it seems all the rage in this show! Bomb ends up seeing Mark, a senior of Jin who he has been wary of, bring Jin home as part of the friend group scheme and of course gets SUPER UPSET. To the point where he accuses Jin and makes Jin cry. This is literally the THIRD time he made Jin cry when Jin did absolutely nothing wrong at all. But Jin crying results into them somewhat making up again. But we still have 1 problem, Jin isn't ready to make his relationship public because the attention they have been getting makes him uncomfortable. Honestly, with all that has happened, I would feel the same F'ing way...
So as if they haven't done enough, this group of friends think that these 2 coming together has been all their hard work and they want to do one final thing. Convince Jin to make things public, because manipulating someone into essentially coming out is fine now too. Also NO ONE GIVES JIN ENOUGH CREDIT. The only reason Jin and Bomb are together is because Jin never gave up on Bomb and keeps trying to open up, being vulnerable and actively try to communicate with Bomb when all he does is shut down, close off, run away and accuse Jin of not giving him what he wants. There is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship that isn't hidden, but my man, you are the one who said you were okay with waiting. If you aren't than just say so, that is literally all you had to do to avoid this whole drama anyway. Jin seems mature enough to figure it out with you.
So for their final act the group for some reason decides to make Bomb jealous enough so he will run away, have Jin go after him and make things official official? I'm honestly not exactly sure what the plan was. But that's what I could make out of the odd sequence of events. So as you can imagine with Bomb's track record, he gets completely destroyed with jealousy and runs home for the holidays. But not before we get the final icing on the cake, the cherry on top, the creme de la creme if you will. We get him spotting Aim (his cousin and Jin's ex if you remember) hugging Jin. Somehow that was not part of the plan? But also definitely worth mentioning since this is the moment Aim confesses that she knew of Bomb's feelings from the get go and how she feels like she manipulated both of their feelings and their relationship. Aim is weeping at this point, riddled with guilt and shame and hugs Jin as he tells her that they are now even. WHAT THE FUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK Jin babes? when did you ever do anything to deserve any of this? He said he wasn't a good boyfriend, but we never saw him be a bad one, the boy didn't even move on for the longest time as he still was head over heels with Aim post break up. She moved on way before him. And a scene later she is gloating again on how her plan is working.. crocodile tears? New achievement unlocked: Gaslighting Jin. Oh yeah, so Bomb sees this and the first thing he thinks is that his cousin who is now in a new relationship and his boyfriend who keeps crying because Bomb keeps distrusting him for no reason, are absolutely without a shadow of a doubt obviously getting back together. I mean yes, that is the only logical conclusion, so there is no need for any conversation to be had and we can now just go and fuck ourselves off to the nearest airport so we can run back home to mommy and sulk in GIGANTIC MANSION OF A HOUSE. Dude I'm low key jealous and I may want to stay single for the rest of my life if I get to retire in that house... Uhm but yeah, come to find out that Aim and friends did want Bomb jealous and running home to mommy, so plan is still in tact and Jin being an absolute babe of a man is willing to fly over and visit his doofus of a boyfriend at his house. For some unrelated and unexplained reason even the mom likes to f' around and pretends she doesn't know who Jin is, so Jin comes out to her as he can't afford to lose Bomb again after another hissy fit and they all just kinda laugh it off. Aim and friends are finally satisfied and pat themselves on the back as Jin now suprises Bomb hitting him with the '' Facebook official ''. And we all live happily ever after. Well that is ofcourse, besides all the hinted at side couples that never get their resolution. The End.

It is what it is. I like Jin. I need therapy for all the gaslighting and probably a sequel because I've got Stockholm syndrome and daddy Keam needs himself a man.

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Wrong Synoposis? PS: don't make plans with Kaitoon

The first 3 episodes I genuinely thought we were following Kaitoon as our main lead, only to read the synoposis and realize this was supposed to be about Valen??
That definitely never comes across, the first 20 minutes we follow Kaitoon as he goes through his daily life before he encounters Valen.. from Kaitoons perspective. We never get any background on Valen either, why he is in debt, why he possibly had a gambling habit (which is only hinted at in 1 sentence during the entire show) it never gets mentioned that his birthday is on Valentine's day, so I'm not sure why that was of importance in the synoposis either?? We even celebrated Kaitoon's birthday, but never Valen's? We follow Kaitoon as he is simultaneously getting to know this other guy Nont as well as Valen. Which gives you this very one-sided love triangle where it is painfully obvious Nont was never even an option to begin with. The one thing this entire show taught me was that you should never make plans with Kaitoon, since he won't remember it anyway. Literally every single time (I'm not kidding, this happened literally every time without a fail) Kaitoon forgot he made plans with someone and just never shows up. He doesn't even bother cancelling either... Poor Nont.
Due to the way everything is set up I'm not even sure why Kaitoon would be seen as the guy that teaches Valen about compassion and tenderness? Like where? That just never happened in general. Sure he isn't a bad guy, but he isn't particularly compassionate or tender at all. He is just kinda there, minding his own business/ being self sufficient and barely interacting with other people. Noticed how I can only talk about Kaitoon? Yeah well turns out we genuinely follow most of his life, I'm not even sure what Valen does in his free time if I'm honest with you. Nothing in this Synoposis was something I saw in the show at all and it's a pretty short and straight forward blurb at that.

Now if you leave the Synoposis out of it, it was a decently enjoyable show, apart from the Nont parts that just became painful to watch. I would have rather had them keep things platonic with Nont or just scrapped his entire character since he never was part of the story, he was more like a prop to fill some gaps in Kaitoons free time?
And lastly on a positive note, let's be honest here, why did them holding hands in the end give me butterflies though!
It was such a small simple gesture and yet genuinely impactful with the way the show was set up.
I like how everything feels kinda slow burn, but you still are made aware of Valen's interest in Kaitoon the entire way through. Nothing between them was rushed and felt pretty organic which made the last scene work beautifully.

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Such a blast!

I honestly had so much fun watching this show! It was just what the doctor prescribed.
It definitely isn't a serious show, though the tone does change slightly halfway through from fluffy and over the top to a more regular romcom setting that's a little more toned down.
I've watched at least 44 bl's this year, both very lacking ones and some of the best ones I've ever seen. This one is just a good middle ground for me. (unpopular opinion but I liked it SO much more than Secret crush on you, which follows a few similar threads. )
I knew going in that it wasn't highly rated and people kept warning to keep your expectations low.
In my opinion, I don't really think I loved this show because of 'low expectations' and I don't think you should have them set low in order to enjoy this show. I think you just need to understand exactly what it is your getting yourself into or just not look into what kind of show it is all together to flow with the experience and not judge until the end like I did. I binged this within 24 hours btw.

Were there a lot of cliché's ? Yes, but if you watch it completely through, you actually notice that the show itself is super self aware of that. The fandom starts to get called out for being a form of serious harassment with actual consequences and fear as it proceeds to get worse. As well as that Pi's irrational dislike of Mork hanging out with his friend gets addressed briefly, because friends hang out, I know that was news to me too but it sounded valid.. >O w O<
I'm just kidding here, but as someone with little social interaction and large phases of having no friendships, I do get it.
Especially when you like someone and they have actual friends to hang out with outside of you it can be tough, so it's on you to stay rational and realize the difference between love and friendship.
Then there is that moment when Meen didn't let himself fall under peer pressure and stood up for himself which is something I really liked.

The only thing I really disliked was how pushy everyone was about Pi needing to realize his feelings for Mork. Not only does Mork push himself onto Pi a little too much, even by being his mystery chat friend, but Nan even rejects Pi because he doesn't believe Pi has feelings for him. The fandom also keeps pestering him to just admit it. We as the audience can see how Pi does indeed like Mork, but as a passerby in real life I would genuinely not be convinced he liked Mork romantically at all. Mostly because he keeps shouting he likes Nan. It annoyed me that no one took his experience seriously. Even when you can tell someone is being unaware or avoidant of their feelings, it's up to them to realize it for themselves. The pushiness was just a little too much.

To start out there is a very specific stylistic choice in the way this is filmed. There is a mini series mixed in with the actual series rather than a main couple vs second lead couple. The mini series being made obvious with the changing display size and a voice over. In the beginning I didn't care too much about the mini series, but it did grow on me half way through and became more enjoyable to watch, though at no point did I have any particular feeling about the couple. It was one of those things where I was just able to turn off my brain and allow what happens to happen.
(I still need to see the rehearsal of that strip tease tho! Like how this group of guy friends have a whole choreo ready is beyond me xD It was honestly one of the funniest scenes when you think about them trying to get this thing perfected in their moms living room. )

The conflict in the last episode felt a little out of nowhere at first, but thinking back it made perfect sense. I even recalled myself noting that usually the one who's most jealous tries to top the other person in everything they can and that Pi didn't seem to do so with the spicy food at the food stands or the cakes at the café. I remembered thinking how funny it was to me that instead of the main couple, the one who got the short end of the stick by being over the top was Bam, trying to get the spiciest food to show off and choosing 20 different cakes so Pi couldn't get them, making her spend a ton of money. So hearing she liked Mork actually made sense even though I still didn't care for that conflict tbh.

From the perspective of a writer there truly wasn't anything wrong with this show. It almost felt like satire but done in a way where you still want to make an enjoyable show rather than a parody. Nan was non existent, but I didn't mind that.
There were some moments I did feel annoyed with some characters, but humans are sometimes simply annoying so I can't even be mad at that!

Maybe this was just the right show for me at the right time, but I loved it.
It comforted me, turned my brain off, made me smile, giggle, gasp and even tear up (I never cry so it could be hormones, but damn that line at the party in the last episode where the fangirl talks about how their job is done and the captain is now sailing his own ship broke me somehow)
I really recommend this show, but I have also noticed it isn't the most popular opinion here so, decide for yourself! :)

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Loved it!

I watched Theory of Love a while back, but never got the chance to review it.
This is yet another one of my rewatch shows for whenever I'm in just the right mood!
I think what I love most about this show is Third and the progression of following his feelings towards Kai.
The emotional portrayal is so beautifully done even when he attempts to move on, I connected with Third a LOT.

Kai definitely was a character that had some annoying parts, but for me it never really was about Kai, this entire show to me was about Third and his growth. This was his love story to himself.
One that everyone will write at some point in their lives.
Loved it!

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