I will go to war for these boys!

This show was the only thing single handily keeping me while alive for the month. The way I didn't even wait for it to be uploaded to an illegal website and started fighting vpn. Sheng Wang and Jiang Tian are my babies, anyone hurts them its on sight. Like, they're the most adorable pieces of fluff to ever fluff. Watching them go from this enemies, to friends, to being absolutely unreplaceable in each others lives was most amazing, heart-felt and masterful thing I've ever seen.

"From now on, I’ll eat lunch with you, I’ll live with you, and you better not regret it."

"To hell with regret." -- It started with this, and the build up to it was so well done I can't even express it. These two actors fucking carried and put their whole backs into it. And them as individual people were portrayed so well I could actually cry.

"I didn't pack my bag. It's been there all this time." -- At first, I didn't know what that meant. But then you hit me with this shit; "He started wondering about. He lived in whichever home had room. I often saw him carrying his luggage, staying here or there for a little while, never able to get close to anyone. No one could have him for long." -- I fucking cried man. Jiang Tian didn't deserve any of it. He was just looking for a place to stay, and something or someone to call his home. Then he meets Sheng Wang and his whole life orbits out of trajectory. He found what he was looking for, and he was going to keep it all cost even by hiding away his feelings.

"Because then it'll really become a place that belongs to you. Don't you think so? It's what you want, right? So I'll go with you!" -- I just know that is the exact moment when Jiang thought Sheng was his home. There were no need for words from him, you could just from his facial expressions and eyes alone that Sheng Wang is whole world and beyond. And when he finally found his home? I fucking screamed okay? SCREAMED!! "You're home. Welcome home." The way I actually bawled during this scene is not even funny. Frankly, it was embarrassing, but did I care???? NO! CUZ JIANG TIAN CRIED AND SO DID I. HE FOUND HIS HOME AND I WAS GOING TO SHED ALL THE TEARS NEEDED.

And Sheng Wang, his boy is a bundle of clouds. I wanna hug and aggressively shake him at the same time. The abandonment issues really stuck with this kid and shaped his whole being. And he used studying as his whole thing, keeping it as a shield because it's the only thing that will not disappoint him. Then Jiang Tian came into his life and boom! Everything fell apart and come back together perfectly. This boy is so deep in love with Tian and he doesn't even know it yet. I just know he'd physically be uncapable of surviving without him. "When I thought I was abandoned by the whole world, when I thought it was useless to work heard, I actually forgot that someone who had nowhere to go home to, was still making an effort for me, giving his best and his all to protect me..." -- Yall hear that? Yeah, that's the sound of me screaming, crying, throwing up. Sheng Wang you fucking precious child. I'm just so happy him and Tian found each other man.

And then comes the cavate of the show. Them being brothers. Like damn, this show was so wholesome I completely forget how they were brothers man. I went fucking feral when Wang called Tian "Ge." FERAL, I TELL YOU. I replayed that scene so many times it's unhealthy. Everyone and their blind grandma can see Tian is head over heels with Wang. Boy, when Wang said; "But... if my dad's proposal is accepted, we'll become real brothers. Will you be unhappy?" -- you can just see what's going in Jiang's mind. Boy does not want to be brothers bruv.

But then. BUT THEN. If that wasn't enough. THEY ENDED THIS SHOW IN THE MOST HEART-BREAKING ENDING EVER. People out here being like "they just changed classes, blah, blah, blah." BUT NO. THEY DIDN'T JUST CHANGE CLASSES. WERE YOU NOT WATCHING THE SHOW?????? Tian knew Wang intentionally fucked up the test, and thought he was leaving him on purpose. The home he so desperately searched for was leaving him intentionally. And then, on top of that, Wang lied to him about. The abandonment issues, the lying... bro, it was all resurfacing. This last episode broke me in ways I didn't think possible. And I'm still not over it. And to end it with this monologue?

"To be secretly in love is one's personal turmoil. Because I like you so much, I feel like I've been overly cautious, like walking on thin ice, to the point where I nearly forgot that I'm 17 years old. At this age, the whole world is mine. I don't have to hesitate, and I don't need to consider things. There's no obstacle I can't overcome, and nothing I can't do." This is a cruel and unusual punishment. Wang tried so hard to stay away, but bro, he cannot live out without his mans.

And season two being confirmed was the best thing my ears have been subjected to in the year of 2024!! IF THEY DON'T GET THEIR HAPPY ENDING I WILL FUCKING RIOT. I WILL NOT HAVE ANOTHER "STAY WITH ME", YOU HEAR ME?????

Now as to why this didn't get a 10 like it should have. First the ending. That automatically reduced the rating for me. And the main reason? The fucking teachers. The way I was using my skip button for them was insane. I did not give two hoots about them and I still don't. I honestly thought the two male teachers were dating, but apparently not??? I was just confused man. Their story line takes up more space then it actually needs to. Unnecessary, irrelevant, couldn't care less.

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The happy ending we needed after the sad-fest that was 2024 c-dramas!

This is a late review, and it's been sitting in my notes for a while after the last ep dropped, so I thought I might as well post it.

The way I knew this was going to be that show then moment I laid eyes on that trailer is actually insanity. I saw that trailer and I counted down for this release date and I was checking these comments and watching the edits like no one else. And the moment their marriage ep dropped? I was up at 10 am in the morning every day watching this as it aired. This was the first c-drama that I kept up with daily, and no fucking regrets at all. It had everything I wanted in terms of romance and more. Grey hair and that horse kiss was all I needed to sell me on this show, and it fucking DELIVERED!!!

2024 was nothing but sad dramas, and I went on a binge to watch as many sad endings as possible. Honestly, I was ready to sacrifice the happy ending for Song Mo to get his grey hair back, but I guess a happy ending will do after the devastating year that was 2024 c-dramas. And the fact that we got a proper wedding scene??? WE NEED MORE OF THEM!!! It's so annoying that we don't proper ones while the couple are in love. It's always arranged or forced and it's so jarring. So props to the director. But damn tho, Duke Ying and the Emperor... sheesh... there was a little somthin' somethin' going on there. I just kept side eying the two can't lie.

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What got me into fantasy dramas

I told myself I wouldn't watch another bromance after Stay With Me, especially a fantasy. But guess what? HERE I AM!! I folded okay. I was weak and gave in. I just wanted to know why people were screaming about how this managed to pass censorship. And god fucking damn it, I agree with the people. I am the people. Curiosity might have killed the cat, but god damn did satisfaction bring it back alright.

These two are literally in love your honour, and anyone with a single brain cell and working eyes could see it. Nay, even a blind bat could tell they're in love. Straight off the bat I knew I was going to love the dynamic between WKX and ZZS, the dude who couldn't give to flying fucks and our flirtatious king. Like, the way WKX looks and spits our the flirt bars has me dead. There was nothing heterosexual about that.

ZZS, or A Xu, off-- this man. Boy just wanted to die in peace while drinking alcohol and got a flirty husband, an annoying daughter and a cute son instead. I fucking loved the family dynamic, and watching A Xu and WKX go on a killing speer for their child Cheng Ling was the best thing I have ever watched. And there's WKX, who bullies the shit out his kids, but the moment they are in danger or being pursued by someone he's all Ghost King on them and I'm howling with laughter. Man is so possessive and it's hilarious cuz people keep messing with his people and don't know who they're pissing off.

Now, ZZS. The character development of this man. I could be here all day screaming about it and I'll still have so much to say. I am so enamoured by this guy, and if weren't for WKX, I would take him. The way he slowly went from someone who couldn't give two fucks about WKX, to slowly joining in his banter, flirting back at him, letting him touch him, letting himself fall in love and love him wholeheartedly. MY HEART COULDN'T TAKE IT. He's so fucking pretty as well, so it didn't help. "The world is not important. What's important is finding a soulmate." -- LIKE, YOU CAN'T TELL ME WHEN THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER AFTER ZHOU SAID THIS IT WAS PLATONIC. THERE IS ACTUALLY NO WAY. The him saying; "If it weren't for the fact that I don't have much time left, wouldn't it be great to find a soulmate to roam the martial arts world, and spend the rest of my life like the Four Sages of Anji?" This was legit the start of when he slowly started to fall in love with WKX. He didn't care about it before, just wanted to go off and die somewhere, but after meeting WKX, he started to think about this again.

And then after the revelation when he said: "I really thought he was my soulmate." -- TEARS. JUST TEARS. He could have left at that and not gone back to WKX. But brother just couldn't, he fell as deeply in love with WKX as WKX had with him. He opened up to WKX, fell for him, and even after breaking that trust, he still tried to get to know WKX because he knew there was something more. Something that WKX was hiding from him. And the scene where they called out to each other three times? That was the confession. No one can convince me otherwise. That was the turning point, and it was at that moment that ZZS was in deep with no roads back. He stayed faithful and waited for WKX to talk to him. "Lao wen, there's nothing between us that we can't discuss." -- the fucking patience this man has. I could never. And even after finding out his identity ZZS didn't leave him. Instead, what did he say? "My long lost 2nd Junior and my soulmate." -- I SCREAMED. DO YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING. I FUCKING SCREAMED AND SCREAMED SOME MORE. HE FULL OUT DECLARED HIS LOVE FOR WKX. HE HAVE LOST HIM.

And if that wasn't enough, we get further proof when he tries to end his life. "The world is not important, but my soulmate is. Since my soulmate is gone, death is nothing to fear." -- LIKE, WHAT IN THE ROMEO AND JULIET IS THIS?!?! THE FACT THAT WKX BECAME HIS LIFE, AND THE WAY HE WAS WILLING TO FIGHT ALL OF THE MARTIAL ARTS WORLD WITH WKX AND JUMP OF THE CLIFF WITH HIM-- UGHHHH. I CAN'T. THIS MAN IS WHIPPED, GONE, BESSOTTED.

But that doesn't even get started with Wen Ke Xing. THIS MAN. THIS BLOODY MAN. I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM. This guy is what you call a perfect onion character. A perfect sympathetic villain. The amount of layers this man had was fucking insane. More insane than he was in the series. Everyone knew this man was sus from the start, but watching him peel back layers of himself as the show went on was the perfect case of characterisation so many BL shows miss. The fear and terror hidden behind the cockiness. The shame and guilt hidden behind his ideals. The anger and resentment hidden behind his laughs and confidence. Everything was so masterfully done that I couldn't hate him for a single second. Even when half the world was going to shit cuz of him.

But then, despite all the tragedy that befell him, he still found love. He found someone to call a soulmate, someone who was willing to sacrifice himself for him. "As a wanderer in this world, all I need is you." -- He might have been interested or fascinated by ZZS when they first meat, but you could tell that he genuinely started to fall in love with the man after getting to know him. And his confession??? "The moon looks beautiful tonight." -- Yeah, these Chinese producers knew what they were doing to pass that fucking censorship ban. And when ZZS said; "Lao Wen. I used to think that you were pretending to be crazy and dumb. I didn't realise that you're actually crazy." -- THE BETRAYAL IN HIS EYES. BRO, LOA WEN WAS DESTROYED. HE WENT CRAZY, THE RED EYE LINER WAS BACK. THAT'S WHEN YOU KNOW SHIT WAS ABOUT TO GET REAL. I just love how their "breakups" progressively got smaller as the show went on. That was probs the funniest thing about this series.

Gu Xiang -- This girl. Honestly, I don't know how I feel about her. I don't hate her, but I don't love her either. She just got on my nerves most the times and that's putting it lightly. But her relationship with WKX was so heart-warming and funny to watch. The father-daughter dynamic they had going on was hands down the best part of the series. BUT THEN. BUT THENNNN. I was a sobbing mess okay. I had tears in my eyes and they were everywhere on my face. It was river of tears and I had nothing more to give. BECAUSE HOW COULD YOU?! HOW FUCKING COULD YOU?! HER AND WEI NING DEVERSED EVERYTHING AND MORE. WEI NING DESERVED THE UNIVERSE AND MORE. THAT SCENE SINGLE HANDEDLY BROKE ME TO FUCKING PIECES AND I'M NEVER GETTING OVER THAT.

Also, give my baby Cheng Ling a break. Boy's back must be broken from carrying so many sects on his back.

Censorship was 1010% sleeping when they greenlit this show. And most of the kudos have to go to the script writers. The way they used poems and double meaning phrases and the word soulmates instead of lovers was a fucking genius move on their half. Ain't no Chinese government sticking their nose in that and smelling the homoerotic undertones despite how pungent it was.

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Tragic property. Emotional property. HEARTBREAK property! WHERE IS MY THERAPY PROPERTY?!

I'm going to miss this show so much. Coming home to watch this nonsense of a show and laughing my head off for the first half only to be depressed for the second half was another kind of happiness. Watching this group of unlikely people coming together and becoming the best found family ever was something I never knew I needed, but want to keep watching unfold forever. They were each others family, friends and home. I NEED A SEASON TWO.

But real talk tho. These motherfuckers out here telling me it's not BL, but was it casual when Home called Peach his home? Was it casual when Peach cried like that for Home? "Would it be right for me to tell him I don't want him to go? Would it be right to say I want him to stay with me, that it'd be just us, ghost-hunting?" WAS IT CASUAL WHEN HOME SAID THIS ABOUT PEACH???? WAS IT????

Like, these people are so adamant, yet, simultaneously feeding my delulu like no one else. "Why would I go back there for when my dream is here?" -- I lost my fucking shit okay. The way my breathing just stopped. At this point they're just playing into it. Peach out here giving up his dream job and saying it's cuz the ghosts will speak Chiang Mai dialect. Brother, who you trying to fool??? You can't hear ghosts you mofo, why you capping!!! Like PangPang was the biggest shipper and wasn't even trying to hide it. They're in love your honour, they're married you're honour. If this is me being delulu, then I shall forever be delulu!!

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Either you like this show, or you won't.

I never expected to enjoy this show so much. This was 100% my 2024 surprise BL. It had me screaming, laughing, squealing, crying and giggling like no other. The comedy in this was perfect, and the visuals and cinematography were amazing. Maybe it's because of the phase I'm in my life, maybe that's why I enjoyed this show so much. Cuz Ryan is genuinely my spirit animal. I am Ryan, and Ryan is me. Introverts, can't speak up, makes stupid mistakes, didn't have friends at uni and only went for lectures, and has no idea what to do with life. "Unlike me, who just shows up to study and goes home." -- Never met someone that spoke to my soul like that . Every time this boy did something or said something, I felt so called out. This show was so realistic sometimes to point where it was scary. P'Baimon said; "You want to be porridge with side dishes?... Something plain and bland, but goes well with everything." — I died. I was sold. I knew I was going to love this show.

Now, let's get onto my favourite part of the show -- P'Jane. This man is hands down one my favourite characters in all of BL. There is no questions. I fucking love him. At first, I thought we were getting a cold-hearted guy who's only soft for the main lead. But boy, was I wrong. I knew this guy was going to be it for me the moment he first complimented Ryan. "You didn't score a goal or find the extra, but at least you got my printer working today." -- I should be embarrassed that this got me smiling like a fool. He has a hard exterior but a soft interior. Man is so over worked, no wonder he's so stressed and gets annoyed/angry at everyone. Legit, when Rayn makes mistakes, I get so fucking stressed for the boy cuz you know he is in for a scolding. When Ryan cried after that scamming fiasco I started tearing up. I was stressed. Ryan is legit me, but more capable. But then Jane had to go and say this; "Actually, you're not a bad assistant." -- And I was down bad for P'Jane like Ryan was. Sue me.

I don't care what anyone says, I will forever be a P'Jane defender. He's such a good mentor, harsh, but gives praise when praise needs to be given. And you can just tell how much he cares for his staff despite them badmouthing him all the time. You don't understand the amount of times I watched the scene of him defending Pie. Screaming, crying , throwing up. That was so hot of him. And it was this moment when this man got solidified as my fav BL character; "All they can do it criticise me. I know my intentions." -- This was hands down the the moment I officially lost the battle and was on my knees for this man. I am not even ashamed of myself. And lets not even get started on this man's character development. Oof-- him tackling the insecurities and learning how to better himself to pursue his dreams was just... chef's kiss. I wish we had more of that, it more interesting then Judy and Ba-Mhee.

And the way Jane and Ryan's relationship developed??? Screaminggg. Yes, I would have liked more scenes with them, but honestly, I wasn't even that mad. I was eating up everything they gave me, and I lived for all their interactions. "Why are you mad at Phi?"
"Can you call yourself Phi with me forever?" -- SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP. YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THAT!! AND IF THAT WASN'T ENOUGH, THEY GO HEAD AND DO THIS;

Ryan: "What kind of feelings do you have for me?"
Jane: "Behave yourself and I'll tell you" -- LEGIT DYING THROUGH THIS WHOLE INTREACTION. DIED AND LEFT THIS EARTH. The way these two always solve all their misunderstandings in one day and it never drags out to the next ep is just amazing. The communication, the reassurance, the maturity from Jane -- UGH, I WANT HIM.

Now, let's talk about the other plot. I honestly didn't think the Ba-Mhee/Tae and Judy plotline would drag out for this long. And while I appreciated the time it took to flesh out the whole thing, the overall conclusion made the whole drama pointless. I enjoyed, but I didn't really care at the same time. You could tell that Ba-Mhee was holding onto someone that showed her the affection and attention she was lacking from Tae, and the whole thing was very realistic in the way's portrayed. But having her getting back with Tae made all her inner turmoil useless, and the GL bait quiet jarring to say the least. But also appreciate that they didn't just rush through it. I'm just annoyed about the execution of it all. If the conclusion wasn't her getting back with Tae, it would have been such a good plot. But in the end, it amounted to nothing really.

But the who situation did a very good job at showing that both sides weren't wrong. Tae wasn't there for her, didn't show affection and give his time and kept brushing her off. While Ba-Mhee cheated on him despite her having more or so convincing reasons. It wasn't all black or white, and I really appreciated that. Honestly, the main thing I got out of this, Pah is the best friend everyone needs. Man was not playing around and fired shoots left, right and centre. And I loved him for every second of it. And Tae. My poor boy. The way he pretended to be fine but then broke down when he was alone. OOF. "Without you to remind me , how will i live ?" -- TAE CRIED AND I CRIED WITH HIM. Boy finally realised just how much Ba-Mhee does for him, and it was about time he got that wake up call. Only if they just left it at that made them come to terms with the break up. And Ba-Mhee. This girl. I really don't know how I feel about. But one thing I do know, she needs to stop fucking crying. Istg, she shed one more tear and I was going to go rip her new one. But I couldn't hate her either. And it mainly because the show did a really good job at making you sympathise with her position/feelings.

I just overall love how all the characters had equal amounts of screen time. The show is called "The Trainee" for a reason. We got to explore and develop the whole cast, and I loved that so much about the show. "Whenever i feel like I lack talent, I tend to blame it on these things without realising it" -- Pah being the most relatable character next to Ryan was not something I expected, and us getting nearly an ep to explore him was something I really liked.

And special shout out to my girl Pie. Watching her go from this stoic hard-ass to someone who joins in the fun and is soft was amazing. I love Pie, and her friendship with Pah was something to die for.

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The one time everyone supported infidelity

The messiness of this show is immaculate. The way it gaslight me into supporting infidelity is honestly spectacular. Vee was someone I was so against. Boy deserved the fucking streets!!! But then... as the show went on, you just realise he's young, dumb and broke. The pain he went through wasn't explored and I'm so upset about that. He's one of those characters you either hate or you begin to understand and start liking. I'm in the later surprisingly. But he should be so gald he's a fictional character, cuz my boy Mark left his dignity at the table so many times. Cuz the way I would have thrown him to the wolves if he were real and he messed up that first time. Mark is stronger than I will ever be smh.

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An annoying character done right

Not this show being one of the best things put to page. The absolute fucking galls of the writer to create someone like Kawi is astronomical. He was so fucking annoying, irritating, hair-pulingly frustrating, and yet not once could I hate the guy. The way they wrote this character was fucking amazing, and every aspect of his personality made sense and got developed. This is a case study of a character arc done right. And the way this boy slowly started to realise how much he needed Piseng next to him was both satisfying and heart-breaking. These two went through too much. And then he goes on and says this: "For me, no matter what happens, being his and belong to one another is the rightest thing." -- And this line single handily took me out and put me back together.

And Piseng. Oh my fucking lord, this boy. I want to wrap him up in a blanket and give him the biggest hug. Boy went through to much, and not once did his heart waver. The greenest of green flags to ever green. Ain't no one doing it like him.

And special mention to Max and Pear. No friend has ever friended like Max. Give his boy a fucking award for being everyone's therapist. And Pear, my beautiful girl, I would have rioted if she didn't get a happy ending. She deserves it more than anyone.

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Sometimes you just need a cute BL to get through the day

I honestly wasn't expecting this to be as good as it was. Sometimes you just need something cute, sweet and fluffy to get you through the day, and this was 100% it. Diew is the biggest cutie patootie to ever exist. Istg, every time he smiles I just feel the need to clutch my heart cuz of the cuteness overload. That smile is a lethal weapon, I tell you. Can stop wars, I say. And don't even get me started on how relatable Diew was man. He hit too close to home. Him being terrified of being himself was something I related to too much, and the awkwardness in his interactions with people got be gritting my teeth cuz I could see myself in him.

And God has officially entered the list of greenest of green flags to ever green. He's actually such a teddy man. Those muscular arms but actually the biggest softie. AND he can play the drums like a god? Yeah, Diew is one lucky man. This was just a feel good show, and the amount of times I had to pause my screen to screech and squeal cuz of the cuteness is uncountable. They have to be the cutest couple ever and they didn't even start dating when it all began. AND THAT CONFESSION?? OMFG THAT CONFESSION!!!! HANDS DOWN THAT HAD TO BE THE SMOOTHEST AND BEST CONFESSION I'VE SEEN IN BLS. TELL ME SOMETHING THAT CAN TOP THAT! I'LL WAIT!!!!

But then ep 11 happened...

I'm sorry, BUT WHAT HAPPENED TO MY FEEL GOOD SHOW??? WHAT HAPPENED TO MY CUTIES??? That entire scene actually got me to nearly cry. They both had their reasons so I couldn't pick a side, but the moment they start wiping each others tears????? I LOST IT!! AND THEN GOD LISTING ALL THE THINGS HE LIKES ABOUT DIEW??? MOTHER, PREPARE MY FUNERAL!! They're such a healthy couple I can't. They're new to love, love and appreciate everything about one another, and are afraid their flaws will ruin the relationship. And watching them learn to grow from that was honestly so beautiful and heart-warming. Because that's what young love is at the end of the day, learning and growing. I just can't believe how much I love these two.

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When life is beautiful, but also the most tragic thing you'll ever witness

I spent close to 10 hours crying over this drama. My head hurt, my eyes were sore, I couldn’t breathe properly because my nose was blocked, and I got severely dehydrated. I want compensation for emotional damages and fees payed for the lasting scars this show has left me with. Right when I thought I had caught a break from crying, and that I had nothing left to cry, more tears would just roll down.

Everything about this show broke me in multiple different fragments, and the two scenes where his best friend broke down had to be the ones to emotionally scar me forever. Nothing can convince me this isn't a remake of Hour of My Life, and I'm so glad they didn't follow the "senior dates ex girlfriend" plot beat. And many other small changes that I really appreciated. Guang Pu is taken so I can't have him, therefore I'm taking the Leader for myself. How this man is single is beyond me. He had to be the most amazing, caring, loving person ever. The lengths he went through for Tuo was so endearing and heart-warming. He's the legit the father Tuo wished he could have had. My heart belongs to him.

And my girl Zhi Qu. I would kiss her if I could. She is an angel in human form. The kindest soul this earth had seen. Both of them are, and that is why heaven matched them. And that is also why this show is so heart-breaking. Because it's the most gentlest and kindest people going through so much and you ask yourself "what did they do to deserve this," only to remember seconds later that people will only pick the prettiest flowers. All the actors did such a fantastic job in this, and biggest shout out to Lin Yi because he went above and beyond to make Tuo's character come to live. I hope he's happy, because I'm never recovering from the emotional trauma this show as caused me.

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Woman empowerment and girls supporting girls

I thought I was going to get a feel-good, wholesome family drama. What I actually got was woman empowerment, buckets of tears and heart-ache, interstate and familial politics, and one of the cutest couples ever. Istg this drama made me cry in the most unexpected of time, and the absolute emotional wreck I was in when Hao Jia tried to kill herself. I'm just so glad my girl got to leave that toxic environment and was able to live her own life. Li Wei's character development had to be the best things ever, you wouldn't even recognise her as the girl from the start of the show. Yin Zheng being the biggest green flag ever, and him and the 5th and 3rd prince are my favourite trio of brothers. I needed them three on screen more cuz I just loved their shenanigans. 5th prince and his wife were my second favourite couple, and I was legit rooting for them since the start of the show. I'm a sucker for that kind of dynamic. Especially when the 5th prince kept "protecting" his wife despite knowing he'd fail, and his wife just being so adored by it. I just wish we got to see more of the 7th prince and his wife. Those two need the justice they deserve cuz their shenanigans/ daily lives would have been so interesting to watch.

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This was a 6/10, but I'm giving it a 5/10 out of pure spite.

I don't even know what happened in the last three eps. I broke my forward button trying to speed run it to the ending. This was going somewhere, until it totally lost itself, ran into a bus, and drowned in a pile of quick sand cuz of how fast everything went to location unknown, plot not found. The abundance of miscommunications and monstrous amounts of misunderstandings genuinely did my head in. And thats not even touching upon Pei Heng — cuz istg, if I have to hear that man say him and Qian Qian were engaged since childhood ONE MORE FUCKING TIME, I will ram myself into a bloody bus. And don't even get me started on the fact that Han Shou tried to sexually assaulted Qian Qian to scare her and get back at her, only to show he regretted it. Ummmm.... the fuck???

They actually had a good premise, only to fuck it up. The humour was there, until it got drowned out by all the stupidity. And the setting. I don't know about everyone, but personally, it did not vibe with me. Like I get the purpose, and I genuinely thought we were going to start a conversation about how the female lead country was just as stupid as the male lead country. There was nothing empowering about it, it was legit what the male dominated country is like but with roles reversed. If one is fucking stupid and ridiculous and icky, then so it the other.

Also, Qian Qian is single handily the most annoying bitch ever. The definition of go girl give us nothing. Not a single brain cell up there. She single handily ruined her own story SHE WROTE by going inside it. You'd think for someone that writes, she'd recognise flaws in her own thinking and as well as avoid all the cliches — NOT FALL INTO THEM.

This had to be the biggest slog fest ever, and the only reason I watched it was cuz of Ding Yu Xi. But I didn't vibe with his character one bit, so that wasted my time even more. It just made no sense to me.

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A feel-good fantasy that heals the soul

This was genuinely the best feel-good fantasy drama ever. The comedy was amazing, and the dynamic of the characters were superb. The concept of the show had me hooked from the first read, and the way I dropped absolutely everything when I saw that this was completed just to watch it is not even funny. I have no fucking regrets. Stayed up until 4am giggling and crying my heart out. I swear, the dynamic of the main couple is honestly what I live for. I haven't seen a bickering couple like this in so long, and I loved every second of it. I was a wreck, A FUCKING WRECK, tears and buckets of tears coming down my eyes when Miao Miao realised Mu Sheng loved her. My heart actually broke into pieces, and I just know I'll end up crying again if I watch that scene again cuz you just remember how happy and giddy Sheng was when prepping everything until shit hit the bloody fan.

Now, that being said, everything was a 9-10/10 until that final episode. I liked the ending, don't get me wrong. That ending was exactly what I expected and I wouldn't have it any other way, or think of anything more suitable for it. HOWEVER. What was that last episode? Granted, I cried buckets watching it, but still. What was that? That shit came out of no where man. Yall could have built up to it a bit, but nope. They just shoved that shit in and completely forgot to foreshadow anything. What they did, and the message they were trying to tell was good, but bro? You can't just dash in last minute plot twists like that. It just makes it seem like it came out of no where and got crammed in cuz the writers wanted everything to be about the main leads. Also, what was that whole spiel about the black lotus? Ain't anyone going to explain that?

But honestly, other than that disappointing last ep (except ending), this was a top-notch fantasy drama. I need more found family, fighting demons, and going on adventure type shows. Or characters going into books/games and trying to get out plot lines. It's such an easy sell, and I'm its biggest victim. I'll eat it up every single time.

P.S. Ding Yu Xi with a long pony tail with bangs out had to be the prettiest thing I've seen all year. I genuinely could not stop staring at him. Had to pause my screen just to gawk and squeal.

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What you get when two people are allergic to happy endings.

These two motherfuckers are really allergic to happy endings, huh? Not a single one of their dramas that I have completed had a happy ending. But that's not to say I didn't choose this upon myself. I've been digging sad endings recently, and this was added to my list of to be watched immediately. And the thing that made drop everything and watch this? THE FACT THAT THE ML WAS A RED FLAG.

Honestly, I forgot how fun it was being absolutely colour blind. This man isn't even red, he's full on black. And the kicker? I was fully supporting and crying for him. Istg, something about the reds and blacks man, they have a way to play with my emotions. And lets not forgot how pretty Allen is with that pony tail.

I just loved how everyone was so smart in this. There was no dumb characters, no damsels in distresses, and no motivations that seemed flawed. I thought Jiang Ci was going to be someone I didn't like because she seemed naïve, BUT I'M SO GLAD SHE PROVED ME WRONG. I just loved how she was a no bullshit, no nonsense girl. And that slowly, she started to see the ML's side, but still stuck to her own views and morals. Writers usually fuck up these kinds of characters. but they did a fantastic job with her.

And did I fucking cry a river when everyone was more than willing to sacrifice themselves for Wei Zhao? 1010%. Every single one of those scenes made me sob. And no matter how much they wished for his happiness, it was always in his fate to die. I swear, the way I could hear my heart breaking when they showed the marriage sealing from both their POVs. And that ending? "Your father's been waiting for us at home." — Yeah, I did this to myself and now I have to forever live with the consequences. We didn't get enough of their love story, and I will never forgive the writers for that. THEY DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER!!

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ML carried this show

BEWARE OF SPOILERS!!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!


I love Shen Du!!! Omfg I didn't know I would love his character so much, but I love him. He's such a well written character, and every scene with him talking to his family in the memorial room was absolutely magnificent. Episode 8 was the best ep out of the whole show. Shen Du in his family's memorial room and giving his monologue about getting justice for his family, and the small snippet of him denouncing his father, despite not wanting to, was so heart breaking. Ding Yu Xi's performance, the music, the cinematography was absolutely marvellous! I will legit go back just to watch that whole episode. And then episode 39 where he was asking Queen Dowager for justice and it being paralleled to him denouncing his father was chilling. I had goosebumps. Then that final bow in the memorial room with the ost and lighting... I WANT IT FRAMED TO MY ROOM. THAT FUCKING SCENE HAD ME.

And now... all that being said, things that I DID NOT LIKE about this drama:

- The stupid divorce. The divorce bought down my enjoyment by a lot, if I'm being honest. They could have pretended. And them still "hating" each other despite the big bag being defeated was so stupid. Yall had something great, only to mess it up into something good because of this one decision.

- Shen Du's character being regressed to a loser at the end when he tried to win the FL lead back. That was so stupid.
- The one guy that trying to hit on a married woman!! Bro, why do we always have characters like this in shows? They're married, LEAVE THEM ALONE!!

- ChuiChui... my girl... why did it take you a whole kidnapping to finally tell your bestie who the masked guy was? And she could have easily pretended to marry the guy and then back stabbed him. The dude was so delulu it wasn't even funny, he wouldn't even have noticed.

- The FL. I love Yan LiuNiang, I really do. The scene where she used ML's blood to sign off the divorce was epic. But this girl cannot keep herself out of dangerous situations. Legit started to roll my eyes every time she got kidnapped or ended up in a situation that needed the ML to save her.

Overall, it was a good experience, and I would most definitely rewatch this up until the divorce, then skip to the end where Shen Du finally got his justice. The editing at times at the start was kinda jarring for me, but luckily it didn't persist through the whole show. Either that, or I just got accustomed to it. And it was lowkey slow for me at the start, but it definitely picked up after a couple of eps. But I do feel like this is one of those shows that you either like, or you don't vibe with it. So give it try!!

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THEY ARE IN LOVE, YOUR HONOR! THIS IS LOVE AND NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHER WISE!

Istg whoever says this is not a BL couldn't be more wrong. Like, what yall on about????? Who's out there acting like this with their homies and bros, HUH?! Kissing on the cheek in the dark? Lovingly gazing at each other? Saying your homie only belongs to you? Brother, what code book have I missed, cuz I sure as hell, and no one around me, be acting like this.

Addicted was a series that was basically a cultural reset, and one of the biggest things to ever exist. It genuinely shaped a whole generation. And even though I don't remember much, I remember being engrossed into the story like no fucking other man. The acting, the visuals, the story telling... everything was stellar. So this coming in and trying to remake it into its own thing under the label of "bromance" was a massive shoe to fill.

And did it succeed? One million fucking percent!!

I am obsessed with this. I am obsessed with these characters. Wu Bi and Su Yu have me in a fucking chock hold. I lost sleep over these characters. Just thinking about those last few eps and the lines they say hurt me. Even now, just writing this makes my chest ache. Am I being dramatic? 100%. But that's what these characters have done to me. I laughed with them. Cried for them. Got angry for and with them. Got emotionally invested into all these characters and their stories. Their lives were my lives. It's no over exaggeration to say that this is hands down one of the best BLs ever. They didn't even need to add any kissing or confirmation scenes to show that they love each other. The dialogue, the acting... the actors put their backs into this and it paid off. You could tell what they felt for each even if they didn't explicitly say it. That's just how good this was. These two were in love. Their love was pure, heart wrenching, possessive... addictive. And I loved every second of it.

I don't even know where to start with this, but I guess I will start with Su Yu. This boy is fucking amazing. He's a character that's hard to pull off. Because unlike Wu Bi, he doesn't show his emotions outwardly, doesn't use big words or affection. It's the small things, like small gestures or the looks of affection, and the things he does and says. Outside looking in, you'd think only Wu Bi is in love. But no. This boy is just as in love. And the actor did a fantastic job in portraying him. Su Yu isn't someone who lets people in easily. He's guarded, walls higher than the Everest, protecting his heart not only from others, but even his dad. The environment he was brought up in, the situations he was put in, you could just tell he was defensive and kept people at arms length. His studying was the only form of protection and identity — his armour. But then came Wu Bi, bulldozing his way through and slowly crumbling those walls. And you could just tell how Su Yu slowly started to open up his heart, started to trust him. And every time that Wu Bi did something to hurt him, he'd just go back to the cold hearted guy, closing himself off.

But then, when Wu Bi truly started to show that he cares for no one but Su Yu, boy was gone. He's hurt by Wu Bi, but still waits, longs and thinks about him. "He's lost. He can't find his way home." This line destroyed me. He was angry, but deep down he was still waiting. Even when that bitch Ye Wan Ying came into the picture, boy wasn't even concerned about her trying to get with him or her motives, brother got angry because he thought Wu Bi liked her. All he could think about was Wu Bi when he was with her in their last meeting. And then him telling Wu Bi: "From Today onwards, until you get married, I will spend all the holidays with you." Excuse me?!!?! Like this was a confession without it being a confession!!!

And from then, you could just tell how much he cared for the boy without even him saying anything. The looks he gives, seeking for Wu Bi when he needs comfort, looking at Wu Bi before saying "Wo Ai Ni!!" And that rain scene, STOP!!! He was starving, thirsty, nearly drowned, sitting under a fucking down pour and only his shirt to protect him, and what does he do??? CALLS WU BI!!! LIKE SHUT UP, I'M NOT CRYING. And then him acting like he didn't miss Wu Bi, but didn't even waste a second to run to the airport when he got his man's call?? I WAS SQUEALING!! He cares so much for his boy, to give him closure, and he was ready to risk his life. No, you're the one going mad, not me. Istg I could be here all day, and still not be finished. Su Yu is such a perfectly executed character I genuinely can't put it into words. And only a great actor like Zhang Jiong Min could bring him to life like he did.

Now lets get onto my man Wu Bi. This boy. Oh my fucking god this boy. I love him to bits. I didn't think I would love a character this much, but my love for him is too big to contain. The moment he dropped that banging line about calling Su Yu's mum "mum" only after she's dead, I was sold. Then you see his goofy side and I knew it was a point of no return. Xu Bin did such an amazing job that I know I would do him injustice if I don't say he was anything less then perfect, show-stopping, otherworldly. Like, I really thought he was going to be nothing but a cold hearted bastard, but then you slowly peel back the layers and you begin to see what kind of character he truly is. His complicated relationship with his dad, wanting to get any from of validation from him, to accept him as he is. His relationship with Su Yu's dad and getting that fatherly love his own father had stopped giving him. His relationship with Duo, and that sibling bond. Istg, that might have been my absolute favourite familial relationship ever. Wu Bi and Duo had to be the most precious fucking little nuggets I have ever seen before.

Then comes his relationship with Su Yu. This genuinely had to be a masterclass of story telling. You could just tell the moment Su Yu stopped being someone he was interested in and wanted to tease to someone who was unreplaceable. The love that he holds for Su Yu might be a bit possessive, but at its core, its pure. Its kind and loving. Su Yu had been the first person to ever challenge him. To push back against him and not yield to his wills. And that is exactly what Wu Bi needed in his life. And watching him go through the lengths just to keep Su Yu happy was heart breaking. The small, "I hope you happiness" to that bitch Ye Wan Ying when he thought her and Su Yu were gonna be together was devastating. Boy didn't want that to happen, but he still stood down cuz that's what he thought Su Yu wanted. Sitting outside Su Yu's hotel room from 3am because he didn't want to wake him, only to find out Ye Wan Ying was inside. The heartbreak of when Su Yu punched him, but never being able to be mad at him for too long. Everything was slowly done, but it was absolute perfection in execution. It's the way he talks to Su Yu and lets his walls down, lets himself be vulnerable and goofy with the boy. Him saying he can't live without Su Yu. SHUT. THE. FUCKING. FUCK. UP. The dedication, the loyalty, the pureness. UGH, I WANT HIM!!

Wu Bi was such a nuanced character, and Xu Bin played him flawlessly. He was just a boy looking for love and companionship, and found it among the least likely of people. Watching him grow confident in himself to pursue his dreams was so endearing and funny to watch. Him finding closure for himself about his mum's death but willing to be in the dark about it as long as Su Yu is alright was heart-breaking. And when my boy finally got his approval from his dad, oof— I was screaming!! I fucking loved everything about his character arc man, and I wish we could have stayed with him more!

And his mischievous side! I need more of it! He sometimes says the funniest shit ever. And his whacky doodle ass is something we need more of. And these writers were really pushing the boundaries with the shit he says, and I fucking stan them for that. "It's you and me, and in our relationship, I can give you something better than money." — BROTHERS, YEAH?? HOMIES YOU SAY?? Man isn't even trying to hide and yet yall blinder than bats.

Everything was perfect. The angst at the beginning, then slowly getting the character development our boys need, to the most precious found family we ever got, to them being unreplaceable in each others lives. This story was able to tell us that not being blood related makes you just as much as family as blood-families. The relationship between these characters were honest to god beautiful, and each interaction left me with wanting more.

THEN YOU GET THE FUCKING ENDING!!!

I SWEAR ON ALL I HOLD DEAR, WHEN I SEE THESE WRITERS I WILL FUCKING RUN AT THEM. WHAT WAS THIS? JUST WHY? WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU END IT THERE?

Mo Yi is my villain origin story. I will hate him. I will always hate him. Nothing, and I mean nothing, could ever make him like him. This son of a bitch needs to burn in hell and not even the 9th circle is enough. He was the cause for the accident and still demanded that Su Yu pay for the bills????? Brother, excuse me????? What the fuck, you bastard? Where's the respect? The dignity? The decorum?

"In my heart, you have always been invincible. You are always so healthy, always full of energy, always strong and independent. But at this moment, I realised that I was wrong. You can also get hurt, you can also show weakness, you can also sleep without waking up. I'm so afraid of your death, to the point that I'm willing to give everything in exchange for your life. As long as you can survive." — If I don't memorise every line of this then I'm not human. I was broken. Irreparable. Heart not found. Soul lost. This is the moment that you realise that Su Yu is just as obsessed with Wu Bi as Wu Bi is with Su Yu. AND BROTHER??? I WAS A MESS. I AM NEVER GOING TO BE THE SAME PERSON EVER AGAIN. And these being the last lines of the show?? THAT'S SICK OF THEM. SICK, I TELL YOU. I want my therapy bills paid and want my memory taken so I never remember this happened.

AND THE FACT WE DON'T GET A SECOND SEASON??? UMMM— EXCUSE ME??? I'm so upset, annoyed, frustrated, screaming, crying, throwing up. I know they get married and live happily ever after in the novel, but I will physically be sick if I don't see it on my screen. I seriously beg the universe and everything above to let season 2 be uncancelled so we can watch it. PLEASE MAN, I BEG. I WILL GIVE MY FIRST BORN UP JUST TO SEE THESE TWO BOYS LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER ON MY SCREEN.

Mo Yi: "You will destroy him. No. You already destroyed him."
Su Yu: "I will never leave him." — THIS. THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE EVERY LAST SCENE OF THE SHOW. IF THIS DOESN'T JUST INCAPSULATE THE EVERY ESSENCE OF WU BI/ SU YU RELATIONSHIP THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL. THESE TWO ARE FUCKING ADDICTED TO EACH OTHER. ADDICTED.

There is me before this show, and me after this show. And the me after this show will forever be in a state of heartache in being unable to move on from these characters. Being unable to not forget that there is a scene so heart-breaking that it physically aches. I am going to rewatch this, I just know I will never be able to find something as good as what this show has given me. I am going to miss these boys with my live, they were excellent in every way imaginable, and I truly hate the Chinese censorship ban. They could have had the best dang series the world had seen, a billion bucks at their door step, and the best effing story to be told in cinema history. But alas, here we are. And yet, my boys still delivered and still felt everything down to my bones.

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